A season for this, a season for that ...

My dear friends, my seasons have been so confused that they have created a storm in my little world! Let me explain, just one year ago I quit my job to stay home and care for my children. Being the quite ambitious people we are, Ryan and I decided we would both continue with Grad School together at the same time with two babies under the age of 3 ... this, my friends, was the brewing of a storm.

The lightning came crashing down just a few weeks ago. For the first time in, well, married life I felt overwhelmed beyond repair. I will share one example:
Ryan - The kids are both in bed, lets start on our homework.
Angela - Awesome, I will take this inside computer if you take the outside one!
Ryan - Oh no Cohen woke up! Can you go get him?
Angela - Me? I have a 10 page paper due tomorrow babe! I am stressed out and need to finish this!
Ryan - I still have 30 pages to read before I take my test babe, can you please just get him?

This was it ... the moment I realized the house was suffering, my husband was suffering, my baby was suffering, and I was suffering. I felt trapped between two completely different seasons of my life. I am half way through Graduate School and I feel in my heart that being a Counselor is in my future. But my children and husband are in my current season, and they NEED me right now. They need a mother and wife that can give 110% of herself to her family. Not what is left at the end of a day or on a weekend.

Dear school, I love you and I will return some day, but my family needs me right now, and, well I love them even more =)

Let me tell you about this season of my life right now that has drawn me so far from my academic ambitions! This picture sums it up ... what was meant to be a lovely picture of my mother and I on Mothers Day has munchkins all over! {even more lovely}
Who can read a 10 page paper when there is a smooshy little chunk of Cohen begging to be loved on?

Who can read Case Studies when big brother Peyton is trying to teach his brother how to walk?
How can you say "I am busy right now sweetie" when a face like this is beckoning your love?

Who can plan for internships in the summer of 2011 when the summer of 2010 looks like this?

Right now my life is about Popsicles, diapers, planning summer play group, bible study, crafting, playing puzzles, kissing baby cheeks, making baby food, encouraging other mothers, swim lessons, heart training in defiant little boys, tending to my home, loving my husband, supporting my husband, dinner menu's, family budgeting, researching the effects of disposable diapers on boys, caring for my veggie garden, forming theories on the effects of institutionalized childhoods, and trying to find the cheapest coolest SUV for when we have another addition to our family since I have vowed to never drive a mini van ... this is my life right now, and term papers just don't mesh!

Oh and if I may add, I love my season of life right now, actually I am deeply in love with it. School will always be waiting for me, but life will not =) Thank you Ryan for understanding what our family needs and making it happen, you are a truly amazing man.